Today marks the day I awoke from a car accident that almost killed me...

I almost died several years ago today. In fact... if I am honest, most of me actually did die that day. 💔 

I have never been the same since. Today marks the day that changed my ENTIRE life. 

My brain has never worked the same. 🧠 

My relationships have never been the same. 🙅‍♀️

My body is completely different. 🦵

My world has been forever changed. 🌎 

Of all the changes, of all the terrible things that happened or "could've happened"... in the midst of my LITERAL DARKEST NIGHT... this is the day that marks me meeting THE REAL GOD for the first time.

On September 10th, 2016 I woke up panicking, screaming, in terrible pain, afraid + alone in a hospital room... I had no memory (+ still don't) of what happened? I can't begin to explain the traumatic feeling of that moment... it is etched in my memory forever + still visit's me in my sleep.

The surgeon who put a rod in my leg is quoted to say: "I don't believe in God, I am not religious... but if I was, I would say He hand picked you out of that car that should've killed you."

Years later, this is always a heavy day for me. This is the day all my religious beliefs were shattered. This is the day, I truly was told (by Him) there IS a reason for me to be on this planet (living + breathing). This is the day, I was absolutely saved by Grace.

I had a near death experience. I can never go back to where I was, who I was, what I believed, what I thought was true or how I thought life was supposed to be. Sometimes I miss the way it used to be; certain, easy, formulated, black + white...etc But I will never can go back knowing what I know now.

Today marks the day I awoke from a car accident that almost killed me... but more importantly it awoke me from a belief that kept me asleep.

...more soon, Mel Marie 💋 xoxo